what i don't see won't hurt me

what i don't see

won't hurt me

what you don't see
you don't think about
my smiling face
my polite words
my courage
my silliness
my anger
resentment
fear
doubt
anxiety
you expect
you know


what you don't see
you don't think about
the silent tears
the swallowed pain
the dazed confusion
paralysing fear
deafening scream
maddening silence
suffocating loneliness
empty bravado
consumes me
inside
and out

what you don't see
you don't think about
what i don't see
won't hurt me
what i don't see
won't hurt me

that i believe
i must
what i don't see
won't hurt me

there was once a girl lying there...

there was once

a girl lying there

waiting, hoping, longing

wishes unheard
hopes unuttered
dreams unfulfilled
waiting, hoping, longing
for release
free
unbound

the empty bed
now waiting, hoping, longing
for a girl lying there
wishes unheard
hopes unuttered
dreams unfulfilled
there was once a girl
lying there.

the dinosaur has opened his eyes

the dinosaur has opened his eyes
heavy lids pried open
eyes wide
startled
ingesting
digesting
incorporating
reinventing
images
thoughts
perspectives
scripts
visions

the dinosaur has opened his eyes
heavy lids pried open
eyes wide
open

i long for a moment

i long
for a moment
a time
when thoughts
kickstart
action
long trapped in ennui
arms dragging
dredging space
dreary
presence
laboured
breaths
feet
steeped
in cement
stuck

the moment
the time
when thoughts
kickstart
action
is
now

i say good bye to you

i say goodbye to you
because i love you
you are such a treasure
a gem
that glows so bright
every time

I say goodbye to you
because i am grateful
you bring me
comfort
smiles to my weary days
often and again

i say goodbye to you
because I remember you
in my stormy ocean
a buoy
you kept me afloat
without fail

i say goodbye to you
because it's the last thing
I can say
goodbye
heavy on my lips
heavier unsaid

i say goodbye to you
because i release you
of the responsibilities
yourself
you shoulder
me

thank you
thank you very much
you lived your life
for me
now leave
for you

i say goodbye to you
because i love you

it used to be years ahead

it used to be years ahead
now i am counting days
minutes
moments

it used to be years ahead
how quickly they passed
heartbeats
breaths

it used to be years ahead
i know where they went
joyous
fulfilled

not enough
not nearly enough
more
much much more

it used to be years ahead
not anymore
the future is now
use it
say it
do it

it used to be years ahead
now i am counting days
minutes
moments

what's on your mind

what's on your mind
you cast your eyes
far ahead
into the horizon
lost in your thoughts
are you thinking of me
of the times we shared
together
are you thinking of me
of the times we spent
apart
are you thinking of me
the reality of time
passing quickly by
my time
counting down
slowing down
winding down
are you thinking of me
making up
time
now

i think not of the past
i am in the present
of each wave
that crashes on the shore
of each breeze
that brushes past my face
of each stroke
of your hand comforting me
of each moment
that i share with you
here and now
of each breath
that i take
of each sight
that i see
of each heartbeat
that i feel
alive
loved

what's on your mind
you cast your eyes
far ahead
into the horizon