others have stopped and got off

others have stopped and got off
when will i
how will i
this journey i am going
where will it take me
how far will it go
how will i fare
as i near the end
will i come and go
alone
a quiet life
 a quiet end
will anyone know
i was even  here
this journey i take

others have stopped and got off
when will i
how will i

traffic signs

i wish
there were traffic signs in my life
telling me
when to stop
danger
go
turn right
left
bumpy road
winding road
no entry

signs
i understand
i see
i know

signs
i break
rushing through life
not slowing down
not stopping
not thinking
not seeing
not learning

crash
boom
bang
i pick myself up
broken
not dead
patched
not healed

just wishing
now more than ever
there were
traffic signs
in my
life

i want to do so many things

i want to do so many things
but i don't know how
i am overwhelmed by this deep loneliness
that weighs on me
so heavily
i can't breathe
i can't think of anything
but being alone
no escaping this life as it is
dreading
knowing
wanting
but can't

i am overwhelmed
deep over my head
alone
lonely
so many things I want to do
but i don't know how
not
to be
lonely