i want to do so many things

i want to do so many things
but i don't know how
i am overwhelmed by this deep loneliness
that weighs on me
so heavily
i can't breathe
i can't think of anything
but being alone
no escaping this life as it is
dreading
knowing
wanting
but can't

i am overwhelmed
deep over my head
alone
lonely
so many things I want to do
but i don't know how
not
to be
lonely